Greetings, bookworms. Do you remember me?
The last time I wrote a blog post was… weeks ago, possibly almost a month ago. You’re probably wondering where this bookworm blogging friend if yours disappeared to (and if not, then I must not have been gone for too long!). This morning I was scrolling through some blog posts and came across Jamie from The Perpetual Page Turner share a “If We Were Having Coffee” post and it inspired me to come back to the blogosphere and write again. And that is exactly what I am going.
I want to start off my emergence back into the blogosphere with a cozy chat: hence, the title: Tea & Chat. This is going to be my personal feature where I sit down with you, with my favourite beverage (and you’ve got to sit down with yours too!) and chat to you about life. Because ultimately, blogging is the outlet for my soul, and part of that is sharing a snippet on my personal self to you all.
It’s been a long day – a long couple of weeks, in fact – so that calls for a step up to something more relaxing than tea. Hot chocolate (with a ton of chocolate sprinkles included, generously). I barely ever have hot chocolate so that’s saying something. What are you having? A hot cup of tea? My favourite is English Breakfast, I get it everywhere I go to eat that serves tea. However, green tea and lemon is wonderful too!
What’s been going on?
University threw up on me. It’s a funny way to put it, but in a way it’s kind of true. The first week was wonderful, even the second week was great but by the third week, the workload got crazy. I’ve never had to read so much before, and honestly, I was not ready for it. Even now, the workload is crazy and I’m glad and lucky to have been able to sit down with you all for this chat. That’s not to say that I don’t like it – I love it! The environment is the best. But the workload – oh man.
I wrote my first essay for uni yesterday and dang, it drained the brain power right out of me! I don’t know whether I’m thinking too hard and putting pressure on myself because I’m writing an essay for a different audience, or if it was actually as hard as I felt it was.
My time is being eaten away by everything in my life, to the point where I have no time to read and absolutely no time to blog (except for today, of course). I’m involved in a lot of things – my involvement in youth group takes up a lot of my time, along with church commitments and I’ve found myself going out almost every single day and coming home too late and too tired to do much else but try and fail to do extra homework before crashing to sleep at night. Frankly, it is the most exhausting thing ever. I can’t remember the last time I felt so mentally exhausted, besides the time when I fell mentally ill.
I’m starting to feel like I’m drifting away from what is important in life – and what I mean by important is the things that are important for my personal, spiritual well-being. Passions and hobbies are things that make you feel light and happy and fulfill that particular void in your soul. For me, that’s writing and reading and with how hectic life has been, I’ve completely turned away from these because I’ve had ‘no time’ for it. To be completely transparent with you, it breaks my heart and right now, I can feel the weight that it’s putting on me. I’m realising that if I’m not doing the things that I love, I don’t feel happy. I feel empty and I feel those passions slowly fading away. I encourage you to never forget to spend time on your passions and hobbies, even if it means sacrificing and saying no to something else.
Some aspects of my life are drifting away as I mentioned about my blogging and reading. However, I am determined to revive this! They say that when you leave high school, it’s so easy to drift away from your friends because you’re going your separate ways. Of course, there are those who stick with you, no matter what situation. I’m sure I’m not the only one who believed that this would not happen to me. Now I’m going through the crisis where I can see this drift happening. It’s harder when it’s happening to the friends I consider my best friends. I’m an overthinker so I don’t know how much I’m actually blowing out of proportion. Friends are important, and I feel like I’m losing that too. I’m sorry for all this gloom, but I wanna be real with you guys, my beloved readers and blogging friends!
On happier notes, I have some new obsessions. Studyblrs have been my source of obsession and motivation. I spend most of my free time scrolling through Tumblr, drooling over those beautifully set out pictures and gloriously written study notes and bullet journals, and planners and AGH. I’ve also found how helpful studyblrs are in giving study tips. I love it. Do you follow studyblrs? I also love to re-write my notes to be aesthetically pleasing – and easier to read and revise over. But mainly because I like making my notes look cute.
I bought a whole lot of stationery the other day and I do not regret the amount of money I spent to get it all. It was all worth it for those pens and colourful fineliners and highlighters. In fact, I think I need more. (Don’t argue with me, okay? I’m an obsessed little potato).
I’ve started watching Gotham and Daredevil on Netflix. Well, so far I’ve only start watching Gotham, but I will be getting into Daredevil soon. It’s been a while since I sat down and took the time to just do something that doesn’t involve using my brain or my (poor and awkward) social skills. I’ve seen three episodes of Gotham so far and I actually really like it. I didn’t think I’d get into it because of it’s genre, but surprisingly, I am enjoying it!
I finished The Ask and the Answer today and MY GOODNESS GRACIOUS. It’s taken me so long to finish it, but finally I have, and my mind is blown and my heart is wrenched. Reading the last few chapters today was intense and emotionally challenging. I found myself caring for characters I initially thought I wouldn’t!
I’ve been playing more piano lately, so I haven’t completely lost all of my passions. I’ve been playing piano for church and learning new songs which is wonderful, but I need a new piano because my keyboard is old and cheap and sucks. But I digress, playing piano has been so fun and stress relieving.
I think that I’ve come to a realisation that I need to say no to things more often. I say yes to 99.9% of things, and I finally see why people say you should learn to say no. You can’t please everyone and maintain yourself at the same time. In the end, you need to make sure you are taking care of yourself.