MONTH IN REVIEW IS A MONTHLY FEATURE HERE AT JOSIE’S BOOK CORNER WHERE I GIVE YOU A LITTLE REWIND OF ALL THE HAPPENINGS OF THE MONTH AND THE THINGS I’VE LOVED.
It seems as though September came and went in a flash! October must have been really impatient this year. Honestly, I feel like the months are speeding by while I’m slowing down!
With the end of the year fast approaching comes heightened school stress from the dark cloud of exams, a ton of exciting new book releases, upcoming excitements for my high school graduation, and et cetera!
Are you ready to hear how the month of September was for me? Let’s go.
Gosh bookworms, let me tell you; my life in the month of September was challenging, dark, depressing, stressful and overall, entirely crazy.
My Mental Health:
So as you all may know from my past couple of posts this month and last month, and also the crazy (unsuccessful) hiatus I took a few weeks ago, I am having a very tough time with my mental health. For some reason, over the past three months I have been feeling terribly sad, horrible, unmotivated and have been losing all sense of purpose in life and living. It’s quite horrible, honestly. This month, it got terribly worse. I have been feeling unfocused and sad almost every single day this month, to the point where – especially this week – space out constantly and feel like I want to cry all the time.
I’m sharing this with you all because you guys are all such beautiful, supporting people who I consider as close as family. And since blogging is such a great outlet for thoughts, I feel the need to share this struggle of mine with you, because I’m dying to let it out. Honestly, I’m scared to say that I have depression. But countless online tests and research has led me to the conclusion that I am in fact suffering from this mental illness. But while I know it’s common, I’m still so nervous about putting myself in that category…
Any how, this month my depression has had horrible effects on all aspects of my life. I cannot concentrate enough to study for exams or tests, I’ve withdrawn from family and friends because I feel like they do not deserve me, and it’s even affecting my blogging! I haven’t been able to focus on blogging due to this, but I’m trying very hard. Pray for me, bookworms.
So, I have exams starting this Monday, and thanks to what I talked about above, I’ve basically been so mentally crippled that I can’t focus on studying. Now I haven’t studied for my five exams and it’s causing a mass amount of anxiety within me. What a great way to start off the month of October, am I right? *cries*
Favourite Post of the Month:
I must say, I enjoyed every single post that I uploaded this month. But if I had to choose (which obviously I must), I’d have to go with my Thursday Ramblings: Balancing Your Life Online and Offline. I gave some lovely tips on how to cope when life is dealing you some bad, overwhelming or stressful cards and how to devote equal time to both life online (e.g. blogging) and offline (e.g. school, friends,).
Favourite Book of the Month:
Can there be any other answer than QUEEN OF SHADOWS BY SARAH J MAAS. No other book can compare, and I don’t think any other book will be able to impress me and make me feel so many emotions as this book did for the rest of the year or longer! Honestly, I was a sobbing mess of feels – happy feels, obviously. READ THE THRONE OF GLASS SERIES NOW IF YOU HAVEN’T. SERIOUSLY. PLEAAAASSSSEEEEEEEE!
If you have been following my Spotlight Saturday posts, you will know already what have been my favourite songs – or should I say albums? – are. So, let me show you, because I want you all to check these songs out!
Badlands (Album) by Halsey
You guys have no idea how addicted to this album I am. It’s one of the albums which I can listen to without skipping constantly, which is what I have been recently doing with my previously favourite songs.
If you haven’t listened to this album, you must. Halsey’s songs have the most fabulous lyrics which are so deep and poetic, something a writer might write.
In addition to the lovely lyrics, the music itself is unique and atmospheric and has the best vibe. If anything, her songs give off a very dark vibe, but they’re fantastic.
Wild (Album) by Troye Sivan
Another album that I adore and will listen to non-stop, on REPEAT. Troye and his music, and his VOICE has literally stolen my heart.
Similarly to Halsey, Troye’s songs have the most amazing lyrics that I really appreciate. They’re well thought out and written, unlike songs like What Do You Mean by Justin Bieber. I mean, it’s got a great groove, but the only lyrics I remember from that song is:”What do you mean”. *shakes head in disappointment*.
You must check out Troye’s songs immediately.
How Deep Is Your Love by Calvin Harris
This song is so groovy, electronic with a female lead singer that has a voice that I would die for! I tried singing this song and failed miserably. Her voice is so unique *heart eyes emoji*.
Wings by Delta Goodrem
I adore this song, mainly for it’s lyrics but Delta’s voice never fails to leave me speechless. I love her voice and this song is just so addictive. It’s another song that I usually let play right until the end.
I’m sure it’s no surprise that I am still watching Gossip Girl with extreme love and obsession. I’m at season 5 I think, and I am still shipping Blair and Chuck, even if it seems like it’s not gonna happen again. I SHIP THEM FOREVER, AND EVER BECAUSE THEY ARE PERFECT FOR EACH OTHER. I DON’T CARE WHAT YOU SAY. OR WHAT GOSSIP GIRL SAYS.