Month In Review | September



It seems as though September came and went in a flash! October must have been really impatient this year. Honestly, I feel like the months are speeding by while I’m slowing down! 
With the end of the year fast approaching comes heightened school stress from the dark cloud of exams, a ton of exciting new book releases, upcoming excitements for my high school graduation, and et cetera! 
Are you ready to hear how the month of September was for me? Let’s go


Gosh bookworms, let me tell you; my life in the month of September was challenging, dark, depressing, stressful and overall, entirely crazy. 

My Mental Health:

So as you all may know from my past couple of posts this month and last month, and also the crazy (unsuccessful) hiatus I took a few weeks ago, I am having a very tough time with my mental health. For some reason, over the past three months I have been feeling terribly sad, horrible, unmotivated and have been losing all sense of purpose in life and living. It’s quite horrible, honestly. This month, it got terribly worse. I have been feeling unfocused and sad almost every single day this month, to the point where – especially this week –  space out constantly and feel like I want to cry all the time. 

I’m sharing this with you all because you guys are all such beautiful, supporting people who I consider as close as family. And since blogging is such a great outlet for thoughts, I feel the need to share this struggle of mine with you, because I’m dying to let it out. Honestly, I’m scared to say that I have depression. But countless online tests and research has led me to the conclusion that I am in fact suffering from this mental illness. But while I know it’s common, I’m still so nervous about putting myself in that category…

Any how, this month my depression has had horrible effects on all aspects of my life. I cannot concentrate enough to study for exams or tests, I’ve withdrawn from family and friends because I feel like they do not deserve me, and it’s even affecting my  blogging! I haven’t been able to focus on blogging due to this, but I’m trying very hard. Pray for me, bookworms.


So, I have exams starting this Monday, and thanks to what I talked about above, I’ve basically been so mentally crippled that I can’t focus on studying. Now I haven’t studied for my five exams and it’s causing a mass amount of anxiety within me. What a great way to start off the month of October, am I right? *cries*


Favourite Post of the Month:

I must say, I enjoyed every single post that I uploaded this month. But if I had to choose (which obviously I must), I’d have to go with my Thursday Ramblings: Balancing Your Life Online and OfflineI gave some lovely tips on how to cope when life is dealing you some bad, overwhelming or stressful cards and how to devote equal time to both life online (e.g. blogging) and offline (e.g. school, friends,).


Favourite Book of the Month:

Can there be any other answer than QUEEN OF SHADOWS BY SARAH J MAAS. No other book can compare, and I don’t think any other book will be able to impress me and make me feel so many emotions as this book did for the rest of the year or longer! Honestly, I was a sobbing mess of feels – happy feels, obviously. READ THE THRONE OF GLASS SERIES NOW IF YOU HAVEN’T. SERIOUSLY. PLEAAAASSSSEEEEEEEE!


If you have been following my Spotlight Saturday posts, you will know already what have been my favourite songs – or should I say albums? – are. So, let me show you, because I want you all to check these songs out! 

Badlands (Album) by Halsey

You guys have no idea how addicted to this album I am. It’s one of the albums which I can listen to without skipping constantly, which is what I have been recently doing with my previously favourite songs. 

If you haven’t listened to this album, you must. Halsey’s songs have the most fabulous lyrics which are so deep and poetic, something a writer might write. 

In addition to the lovely lyrics, the music itself is unique and atmospheric and has the best vibe. If anything, her songs give off a very dark vibe, but they’re fantastic. 

Wild (Album) by Troye Sivan

Another album that I adore and will listen to non-stop, on REPEAT. Troye and his music, and his VOICE has literally stolen my heart. 

Similarly to Halsey, Troye’s songs have the most amazing lyrics that I really appreciate. They’re well thought out and written, unlike songs like What Do You Mean by Justin Bieber. I mean, it’s got a great groove, but the only lyrics I remember from that song is:”What do you mean”. *shakes head in disappointment*.

You must check out Troye’s songs immediately. 

How Deep Is Your Love by Calvin Harris

This song is so groovy, electronic with a female lead singer that has a voice that I would die for! I tried singing this song and failed miserably. Her voice is so unique *heart eyes emoji*. 

Wings by Delta Goodrem

I adore this song, mainly for it’s lyrics but Delta’s voice never fails to leave me speechless. I love her voice and this song is just so addictive. It’s another song that I usually let play right until the end. 


I’m sure it’s no surprise that I am still watching Gossip Girl with extreme love and obsession. I’m at season 5 I think, and I am still shipping Blair and Chuck, even if it seems like it’s not gonna happen again. I SHIP THEM FOREVER, AND EVER BECAUSE THEY ARE PERFECT FOR EACH OTHER. I DON’T CARE WHAT YOU SAY. OR WHAT GOSSIP GIRL SAYS. 

I hope you all enjoyed my wrap up of the month! 

Let me know all of your highlights of the month! 


49 thoughts on “Month In Review | September

  1. A kind girl, your depression will be gone soon! We’re all for you when we need us. Just reach out. We all love you. You are a great girl and you will overcome this! You have great stuff ahead of you in life!!

    Much, much love,
    Veda ❤

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      • You shouldn’t thank me when the words are yours and you deserve them. You are a great person and so that’s why you get those kind words! No thanks. You are worth that and more.


        AWWW! I love you too! **reaches into computer and hugs you** I’m there for you, Josie. I just love how WordPress connects people like this! I’m so glad to have met you ❤ ❤

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  2. My first time here and I just want to say: you’re really strong for having spoken about your fears and your mental health because it is so *expletive* hard. It’s awful and it feels, or at least it felt to me, like something inside of you is being ripped out with how hard it is. It makes it so difficult to say what you want to say. But you are brave and strong and awesome. And even if you can’t always say the words, even if it’s taken you a long time- you’re still brave and strong and awesome. I really, really hope you can talk to someone physically present in your life about this. I know it’s so very hard, considering that and then considering acting on it- it was too hard for me, the first time (and my first time spanned years, Josephine, and I’m not sure it would have if I’d talked), but the second time it wasn’t. I could speak and it made it so much easier and people understood what I was going through and why I was acting differently. It helped so much and it might help you steer away from the really dark places. xx

    Queen of Shadows. So much posting about it this last month and I *whispers* haven’t even written my review yet! I really, really need to get onto that. *Yells* Halsey! I only found out about her a couple weeks ago, but oh my. Love her music.


    • THANK YOU ROMI! Ah, you are so lovely and kind! It really is a struggle most days, but I’m pushing through. And I do indeed have best friends and people who love me to talk to, thank goodness.

      OH MY GOSH ME TOO. I haven’t read my review and it’s been a month or more now! AGH. *guilty pose*


  3. Good luck on your exams, I’m sure you’ll do amazingly! I also wish you the best with your mental health. 🙂 I’ve also been loving Queen of Shadows and Halsey this month. In my mind they’ve kinda become one thing since I would often listen to Halsey while reading. Do u also think Castle from Badlands seems to be made about Aelin? 😀

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  4. I will be praying for you. I have the exact same problem as you do. I get sad very easily and I get upset about things that really don’t matter. Spring break just ended for me so I am worried that I won’t focus well and get upset when my brothers correct me when I get a problem wrong. I really hope you get better=)

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  5. I’m so sorry to hear you’re struggling, I’ll be sure to pray for you. I loved your Thursday Ramblings post so much! And I was just watching Gossip Girl this month, though I’m shamed to admit I might have just watched the episodes guest starring Aaron Tveit…


  6. I think that admiting depression is one of the hardest things a person has to do. I know it was for me… it was like admiting to the world that I wasn’t strong enough or something. And when I did admit it, it was so much later than it should have been, and by then my depression was receeding – I’m so stuborn that I think I willed it away (way too late). I wish I had come to terms with it before it affected me for life… I’m here for you, you know that. ❤

    By the way, I didn't know any of those musics, so I've been listening to Troye's album on spotify and OMG, it's amazing.

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  7. Oh no, Josie 😦 I hope your appointment with your clin psych goes well! I’ve had depressive episodes since I was in high school as well and I was too embarrassed to see a psychologist until my second year of uni. Even in high school, I had always known that I wanted to study psychology and the whole time I felt like I wasn’t allowed to be depressed or anything because I was the one who’s supposed to be helping people in the future. It seems silly to think about it now. But when I started learning about psych at uni, I realised that it was completely fine for me to be feeling that way and that it’s helpful to talk about it in public and to seek help as well.

    I think it was really strong of you to go and get help and I think just taking that step and having your clin psych tell you that you’re depressed will really help you. As strange as that sounds (since I know you didn’t want to be labelled as depressed), I think it’ll release the uncertainty and some of the tension so that you can focus on getting better instead of working out what’s wrong with you. When I was first told that I had depression, I felt terrible and had a cry on my way home… but afterward my cryfest, I felt a whole lot better.

    I saw Nicola’s comment above and I think mindfulness will definitely help you. You can download a mindfulness app on your phone for free. I think the Smiling Mind one is particularly good. It’ll help you relax and clear your thoughts. Mindfulness is also good at enhancing concentration so hopefully your exam studies will go a bit more smoothly. And one of the best things you can do when you’re feeling unmotivated and sad is to actually get up and do things. Exercise is good for promoting mental wellbeing so I say, take advantage of the good weather and go outside for a walk!

    I hope you feel better soon and that your clin psych is able to help you. And if you ever feel sad and need to talk, you can always talk to me 🙂 I’ll try not to sound like a textbook 😀

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    • Aw Jenna! I’m sad to hear that you also went through similar experiences as me. I’ve always been interested in psychology! If I didn’t choose to study writing I would pick psychology.
      But it’s great to hear from you that going to a psychologist and actually getting it all out really helped. I think I really need that because of how bad things are now. To the point where tomorrow is my first exam and I’m freaking out and feeling like theres no point at the same time, I’m afraid I might end up skipping it…

      I’ll definitely go digging for some mindfulness apps today! And i think it is time I move away from my loathing for exercise and actually embrace it, haha!

      I hope so too, thank you so much Jenna!


      • Don’t freak out! You can do it 🙂 Just make yourself a nice cup of tea and sit down with your notes. If you can make it to this first exam, you’ll be able to make it to the rest 🙂 Plus it’s completely natural to be stressed before a major exam so I’m sure you’re not alone in that. Just try not to speak to anyone who will freak you out more!

        I absolutely hate exercise too ugh. But just going for a short walk really helps me. What I used to do for my uni exams was voice record bits of my notes and listen to them on my walks. I don’t know if that’ll help but I found it really useful.

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  8. I’m so sorry to hear that you’re not feeling well, but I hope that will change soon! Remember that we bookworms will always be there for you ❤
    Good luck on your exams! Maybe you could ask some friends and teachers for help? Or maybe your family can help you study or simply be there for you. My mom always helps me through my anxiety during exam periods.
    I'm happy that you still loved QoS despite all that. Thankfully we have books to escape to 🙂 Also I need to listen to all the albums/songs you mentioned!

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  9. I’m so sorry that you’re suffering through withdrawals and sadnesses. Its great that you purge it out through blog posting but I urge you to seek. We’re with you if you want to talk or rant or rave or cry…

    Hang in there!

    P.S I love How Deep is Your Love! It’s playing in my head right now in fact xD

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  10. I’ve been sad lately too like for no reason, I totally get you even tho you seem to suffer from it much more than I am. Wish you’ll get better soon 🙂 All the freaking best! Also SAY YES to Troye and Halsey lol I need to check your other music recommendations! Happy reading and have a great month ahead 😀

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    • Must be something in the air, gosh darn it!
      I’m sad to hear youre feeling similar to me! I hope you feel better soon 💕 And thank you! It’s frustrating when such feelings of sadness and basically EMPTINESS stay with you for months on end!

      YAY! I’m so glad to see you’re a fan of Halsey and Troye! *fangirls* Let me know if you like the other songs!
      Thank you Kim! 💞💞💞


  11. *HUGS*
    I am sure it’s hard juggling anything in life when you’re feeling so depressed.
    I really hope that October is a better month for you. ❤
    I wish you all the luck in the world with your exams as well!

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    • Thank you Ashley 💕 It is very challenging, especially when every day, I’m spacing out almost all the time! It’s had horrible effects on my blogging and reading and studying!
      I hope so too! *hugs*

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  12. I’m sure it will be okay in the end!! I went through a very depressed period a year ago. If you think it’s serious I highly reccomend going to a psychologist who can determine whether you have medical depression or if it is just a mindset which you will get over. We are all here for you! On a brighter note, I didn’t know Troye Sivan sang. I’ll have to check it out.

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  13. Josie, I’ve been through this. I suffered from really bad anxiety (still do at times) a few years ago and it put me in a really weird place. I pushed off going to my doctor for so long because I felt a little embarassed. Once I finally decided to go, I felt so much better afterwards. I did end up going on medication, although I know a lot of people prefer not to, which I usually do, too. But it did help in the long run. I’m here for you on Twitter, or wherever, if you ever need to talk.

    On a positive side, I haven’t watched Gossip Girl, but I’ve heard it’s amazing. The only thing is that I was spoiled for the ending, so now I have very little motivation to watch it. Damn spoilers.

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    • Oh, I’m glad to know I have someone who can relate! Yes, I’ve definitely kept quiet about it for months because I’m embarrassed too!
      I just hope I feel better after seeing a doctor. This week is going to be an even bigger weight with my exams in two days.

      Oh no, that’s horrible! I feel like you’ll enjoy it even if you’ve been spoiled by the ending. I’m totally addicted and if someone spoiled me right now, I couldn’t care less and would keep watching it! But yes, spoilers are the worst.


  14. Aw, it makes me so sad to hear that you’re struggling again, Josie 😦 I hope it’ll get better, maybe you should talk about it, to a professional, or if you ever need to let it all out, well, I’m here. You can always tell me if you need to talk, I’ll be here to listen and help my best, and sometimes, just letting it all out helps you put things into perspective. And remember that this will pass, and you will get better, you have a lot of people around to help you and listen to you, including me ❤
    And I wish you the best of luck for your exams, I know you can do it! Just think about it, one exam at a time, and it will go perfectly well, you're the best 🙂
    On a lighter note, DAMN, I LOVE GOSSIP GIRL!!! Chuck and Blair are so perfect together, I'll ship them always! ❤ It's your first time watching the show, I guess? 🙂

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    • I know, it’s really sad 😦
      Yes, I’ll be seeing a clinical psychologist on Monday, I took the initiative and messaged a medical center in my area.
      Thank you Marie! I really appreciate you being here for me, it means a lot! 🙂
      I will try to keep up that mindset that it will pass, as best as I can!

      Thank you Marie, I’m glad for people like you in my life. *hugs*

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  15. I’m really sorry to hear you are struggling Josie. I know you have had some great support from your school psychologist but have you spoken to a physician/ GP? I love that you can be so open about how you are feeling. Just remember, this WILL pass. Do you do meditation/mindfulness at all? I find this is such a fantastic tool for coping with anxiety xx

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    • Thank you Nicola! Yes I had gone to see my school psychologist for a while but I stopped a week or two ago. Now that its really bad, I contacted an outside psychologist who I will be seeing on Monday hopefully. It’s a horrible feeling and I feel like it’s something that will never go away! But I’ll remember that.

      No I don’t! Maybe I should consider meditation…

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